What I did this Summer Vacation
It was filled with restless nights & loss,
And I grieved for a life I was forced to leave,
And I questioned the cost,
And I experienced an anger,
I tried to suppress,
But just couldn’t deny any longer.
I learned you watch sunsets,
That you’re afraid of people just like I am.
Every day was filled with debilitating pain,
I was made to watch everyone,
While I sat alone, going insane,
Like a bird with a broken wing,
A songbird who has little energy to sing,
And I was so far off from okay.
I learned what it means to be lost,
Truly, completely lost.
But that summer,
I heard the words I love you leave your lips,
And everything collided into an eclipse.
We caught each other falling,
And we tore down some walls,
I made a playlist to declare my love,
I learned what it means to be in love,
I learned that hate is scary,
But love is terrifying.
I was lost, but for the first time I felt found,
And what a lovely person to find me.
I learned I’m not in love with loneliness,
That I rather hate it a lot.
It should’ve been my worst,
And yet I began to heal,
I grew from some of my hurt,
I began to believe I’m lovable,
All because in you I found a right,
The only thing that’s ever felt right.
I felt all the dangers fading away into fears,
I felt falling away all the heavy weight of my years.
I learned what a difference not being alone makes,
During the nights spent talking in your arms.
It was a process,
Learning how to cope,
Learning how to love,
Maintaining my hope,
But that summer I found my voice,
I learned how to be bold.
I learned what happiness is,
And I realized I don’t hate it at all.
I learned what happiness is.
I am not the same person that bode you a temporary farewell last year. But somehow I am more “me” than I’ve ever been before. I hope you learned something over the summer as well. I’ve learned quite a lot.
May you build a ladder to the stars,